LIVE FAST DIE FUN

" I'm a gentleman and you're a liar I expect the best of you but it's so hard..."

Yeah, I've broken my heart AGAIN! And something in my mind still saying: I FUCK TOLD YOU, IDIOT.

IDK if its real or IDK its my imagination.

Well, everything still happening... So let this go.And never mind.

Every tear ive droped... Every breathe... Im not regret. If i could live that again... Ill do!

I tattoed something and that never will be erased of my body:

LIVE FAST, DIE FUN

I live everything with all intensive as i can cuz ill never tell: Im regret to for didnt did this or that

Isabela xx

You know when you just realize that u met THE GUY of ur life and all ur dreams broke up in seconds? A stomach cancer? Hope thats a joke cuz I cant handdle something like that.

I spend all day trying to hold on, breathe and try to find a way to escape but i cant!

I just want kidnap you and and live by ur side 4ever. I know thats a big dream but its MY DREAM.

Everything seems weird. I mean... Nothing makes sense :/

My mind wont stop. My feeling too.

Im gonna crack up!

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Isabela x

1 month w him ♥

He take the night shift @ the Warehouse. Tomorrow is his day off, hope see him.

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Well the fashion class worked great. I think I'll be fun and makes me grow up w the draws.

I just need to wake up early to walk - stop to take a bus - to college.

Exam week @ university!!!! @_@ So, I'll stop to spend time on and study. But dont worry, Ill let all of you (?) knowing what happens here.

Soooo...

I need wake up early to study. :[

Bye.

Isabela x.

[02:45:37] Anthony Pell: <3 this is how i feel. <3 make me think of you so much

[02:46:12] Isabela Carapinheiro: i just wat hold u on too tight

[02:46:46] Anthony Pell: you can hold on as long as you want and i will never let go.

[02:47:11] Anthony Pell: Aww

[02:47:13] Anthony Pell: dont cry

[02:47:18] Anthony Pell: I dont want you to cry

[02:47:19] Anthony Pell: =(

[02:47:24] Anthony Pell: I feel bad now

[02:47:32] Anthony Pell: I never want to see you cry

[02:47:37] Isabela Carapinheiro: im happy

[02:47:57] Anthony Pell: well as long as they are happy tears

[02:47:59] Anthony Pell: <3

[02:48:39] Isabela Carapinheiro: you are the best thing was happened to me since ever

[02:48:52] Anthony Pell: <3 i always be

[02:49:02] Isabela Carapinheiro: sorry

[02:49:06] Isabela Carapinheiro: for crying

[02:49:13] Isabela Carapinheiro: i look like an idiota

[02:49:39] Anthony Pell: No you look beautiful

Isabela x

Dont need to understand

How can i explain about it? My hands shaking and have butterflys moshing in my stomach!!!

He got my gift and a, he liked. Or he just told me that to make me feel ok. :P

Im soooo happy! Really o_o

So, I gotta go to the university and to the bar :P

sabela x

American dream

"Well I had a dream about you and I on the beach and the sand between our toes and the water at our ankles and we were just holding eachother watching the sun go down. And then we drove home and then we ended up at this restraunt and I asked you to marry me. You said no laughed an then said yes haha."

Even in your dreams I'm such a fool!

Today Ive put his gift at the mail. Hoping he likes! I'm fucking nervous!

xoxo I.

Just need more little actions to make the sure choice. Why all that gonna happens to me? I'm sooo happy! And I need be inside the 'real world' for a while e_e Today he said to my sister 'Happy B-day' HAAH Soo cute! And I cant stop look him while he's listening music, sing or just check his emails!

So, tomorrow I'll back to run/walk. Maybe losing weight is a good idea to stop scare him. (Just kidding cuz I really think he likes me o-o or hes the greatest fake I've ever met!).

Ok, and i remebered right now i have some homework from comunication n expression FOR TOMORROW! Ok, Ill do IT. WHEN I WAKE UP. :P

Now I'll watch the last 2 awkward ep, and try to sleep.

See you tomorrow? Hope yes.

xx I.

Now Im really changed! Kind confused but Im defining my life.

kind a fucking weird everything what happened. So fast and so crushed! Im in love with all that! oh my gosh.

He's so cute and i want him here right now! to hug, listening his voice while sleep comes. I wonder how he smell or how could be hugged by him. Blé, a lot of thing to think about.

gotta go my mom yelling.

xoxo I